8:06 PM

i am sick. SHIT. i hate this feeling. and im sweating! ARGH! i got this from my daddy i think. sigh. and im sneezing like amd. ITS TIRING AND BLOODY SESAK NAFAS-ING! urgh. (and i dont want to cancel trips! sigh. people. im sorry. but i dont think the rents will give me permission to go out. but, nvm im going out no matter what lar)
i want to post a long post. wait! i AM posting a long post.

i came across something in the papers if im not mistaken. MALAYs GOT CHEATED AGAIN. and im rather sad and annoyed. sigh. why cant they learn from mistakes others made? why cant they take notice and be really on their toes? why cant they NOT think of getting rich fast. get it people. YOU CANT GET RICH FAST. unless you win something or stike some lottery tickets or win some jackpot. sigh. its useless saying it out here. hmm.

i am watching this sinetron on sensasi and there's this one small cute boy with comical expression and BIG eyes. sigh. I WANT HIM. erm. i want a small brother or sister who stays cute that way without being a bugger and will never grow up so i can still admire the cuteness. HAHA. and then i can be the good big sister and spoilt her/him. ehh. I AM A GOOD SISTER EH! (right)*rolls my phatetic small eyes*

I WANT TO CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN. tapi tkt kejadian lame berulang. tapi tkpe. mary darl will come to my rescue kn? HAAH!

ehh. okay now is the time to become emo-ish. AGAIN!
remember i told said in the before post that my brother is a FRIGGING JERK? nta knape tetibe tadi dier buat baek. sigh. and now i feel guilty. for saying he's a jerk. TAPI SESUNGGUHNYE DIE JERK SEY. haiyah. pape. and right now, im hating everything around me. AGAIN. ok. not everything. itu tipu. i feel so restless that i feel like going to every places i dream of going (of course places in singapore). but thinking back, i dont have company who would want to accompany me. (im a pain in the ass about this kind of stuff) so i shall abandone this for a while lar. till june. haha! and aku da start mimpi seram2 nie. sigh. PSL VAMPIRE PON BLEY KLUA. aiyah. its all in the mind. and im in the midst of 'muhasabah diri'? my life is in a mess. mcm my brain sume tonggang terbalik. i wonder why. maybe over-used due to mye. SCREW MYE. haha. (if my marks are like wth. the first thing i'll do is console myself and then sit myself at one corner. be an anti-social crap)

just now i went to pagi sore. some indonesian restaurant for mothers day. we were the last one to leave. and the food taste okay. but the AYAM, is yummeh. oh gawd. i stuffed myself today. tsktsk. i must be either really hungry or im stuffing for fun. well whatevs. i got to meet daer nenek. =) she seem to be troubled by something. but i cant guess what. and i get to hug her. i miss hugging her.
nenek and i

lyrics from the hush sound. thanks ar tawn. LAGU SENTIMENTAL. nice song.

Shadows all around you as you surface from the dark
Emerging from the gentle grip of night's unfolding arms
Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone?
The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone

You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky
So you can see your beauty every moment that you rise

surrendering, i cant fight alone; NABILAH MOEN

p.s: aku ingin menjadi yang halal untuk dirimu. *sigh*
p.s: jamil, SAMBUNG!
ilah mahu duku menjadi sahabat karibnya. duku setuju? kerana duku katakan bahawa dia akan nerada di sisi ilah pabila ilah memerlukannya. ilah harap duku tidak berkecil hati. malahan bersikap terbuka akan keputusan ilah ini. mana tahu, mungkin perasan gemar itu akan berubah. kerana di tangan tuhan kita serahkan segalanya. kita hanya merancang bukan? tuhan yang menentukan.
YOUR TURN!