3:19 AM

its 3++ in the morning. and i cant sleep. well. i can but i choose not to. HAHA. so what am i doing? im browsing through youtube and i saw lots and lots of mmv. GAWD! and its maple-based. HAHA. i miss mapling. the joy! hehh. and well. one got me close to tears. it was about brother and sister love (i know all that crap) but i was wishing nazirul would actually snap out of all his nonsense and actually realises that he's a big brother to two sisters and if actually he can think with all maturity that he's the only guy in the family. (minus daddy) and he have to be all mature and frigging all. and i was frigging hoping that he would not say things and be rude to mummy. frig! and how i wish that he would be my closest confidante because i miss having the old nazirul. seriously. i cant stand his nonsense and all. but i really love him (gawd i sound so gay for loving a brother but its true) forget him. he's just being fifteen. forgiven.

lino, i read you fanfict. definitely love the letter aerith(??) wrote to zack. it was damn super sweet. man. the way you wrote, i might be in love with zack fair. but i dont know anything about him. and he's yours and like i told you, he's not the dream anime guy i wished. but he's sweet. in your stories. HAHA. (hey maybe write about aerith and zack met but zack was meeting death. and make it more romantic. HAHA) but i had a great time reading it. i so know you can write lots and lots of short oneshot stories. YOU GO GIRL!

and i came across this one funny song. ITS NOT ME ITS YOU. the song is about this guy who always got dumped and every girl who dumped him told him that he's not the problem. its the girl's. haha. the animation rocked!

and another one was a numb techno. before the song started. there was (techno forever) and it rocked lar. the normal techno. nice. remind me that i wanna go clubbing. HAHA. (so anyone wanna join me?) HEHH.

and another one had me thinking what love is. is it about sacrificing or is it about a feelign between two person. do we really need love or is it something that is not important at all. the mmv was predictable but it was a sweet one. seriously. it made me miss mapling even more but im LAZY to. plus i forgot my acc username and pw. (psst. shah or sid or ayid do you happen to remember? HAHA. den i can play)

and i wrote something. a sajak. gawd. its been a long time. yeah? HAHA. (only i know) and i wanna share, yeah. title: tika bulan itu mengambang

malam ini bulan mengambang penuh
sesungguhnya hati sepatutnye tenang
tetapi, hiba pula melanda tiba
gundah-gelana entah mengapa.

malam ini bulan mengambang penuh
sepasang keasih bermadu asmara
berbisikan penuh berahi
meyangka kekal bukan hancur di tengah jalan.

malam ini bulan mengambang penuh
si ayah asyik dilamun mimpi indah
si anak menangis minta perhatian
si ibu terkedu mengenang nasib dirinya.

malam ini bulan mengambang penuh
si jahil menongkat dagu mengira bintang
melamun, memikirkan sesuatu
mengharapkan yang indah berlaku
tanpa usaha penuh kegigihan.

malam ini bulan mengambang penuh
semua masih mengharap
aku juga begitu.

a picture to show the world.


RANDOMing; NABILAH MOEN.
p.s: i told someone im meeting God. im dying (nauzubillahi min dzalik)
p.s: anta fi qalbi. uhibbuka bi shiddati mahabbah. fa hazha lillhai.
p.s: oh!oh! MY MOTHER SEWED ME A PURDA. haha! i'll bring to school on thursday. then all of u can try it on HAHA.