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fainna kathratudhahiki sayaj'alul qalbul mayyit wa tusqatul mahabah wal waqar. faizha yamutul qalbu fa yamutul 'aqlu. wa izha yamutul qablu, falilinsan la yumkin an yatazhakkar durusiha wa yuhfizuha. (( quoted ))

i feel like a tard today. i cant help it. snapped. the one thing that made me wake up and not sleep was thinking about my hifiz. sigh. i feel like a crap already. just when i was motivated. i started to realise what if im waking up too late. and then i feel the sudden urge to burst and snap. and burst and snapped was what i did. sorry you guys. today just wasnt the day, eh? what with monster being like that. mugcow! i miss his smiles in class. when he smiled for a nanosecond just now during his hissah, the feeling was *putsaniceadjectivehere*. monster, please do smile. we need your barakah. im falling behind in fiqh. like not doing work in class like what the others are supposed to do. because of the musabaqah ma'lumat lar. lucky syafiq. hmmph.

tahukah anda mengapa sotong kurita menyerang kapal nelayan? (( syafiq ))

(( continue-ing ))
with a letter by its side
this time, the flower was already wrapped nicely
i was so happy i wanted to jump with joy
the hormones in me were flying everywhere, overjoyed
i was close to tears
i opened the letter and started reading
now, my eyes were already briming with water, trying to escape
i cant help it
i ran outside to the nearest toilet
i cried my heart out
i grabbed my bag and the flower
nearly bumped into the teacher who was entering our class
she called out my name several times
i drowned her voice
cant bear to retrace my steps and enter the class
i still cant believe it
dear you,
i was glad when you received the sunflower i gave with a smile
i was overjoyed when you smiled at me the next day
i was clearly addicted to seeing you everyday when we walked past each other, grinning
like we share the most secret-est secrets that even the swats doesnt know
i was thankful i met you
your eyes glistened wih radiance everytime you smile
your smile wasnt fake, it must come from that pure heart of yours
oh, you're just beautiful
like an angel, you radiates
just by looking at you can make my day
just by knowing you're there can make this heart of mine at ease
im sorry
that we dont have the chance to know each other better
that we dont have the time to spent together
the day sir assinged us as lab partners was the happiest and most joyful day of my life
truth is, im dying
yes, its shocking
i know and im sorry
because i entered your life
and then leave without having to tell you goodbye
im a coward, aint i?
maybe the minute you're reading this, i might have gone
thats why as much as i wanted to create memories witth you, i cant
i have to hold myself back
because i know, that i wont bear to leave you
and then i'll start blaming god for all this
i never wanted this to happen
to me, and to you
if i ever have the chance, i would never leave your side
i'll try to be by your side as much as i could
but i guess, time wasnt on our side
do you ever know that in the next 2 million years, the star will orbit at the same place?
and then everyone wil meet everyone back?
i hope i'll get to meet you
and this time, i get to know you and have you by my side
i know that 2 milion years is a long wait
but i hope you feels the same way
because i want to meet you again
i need you to make me realise life's wonders
please dont cry
because seeing a tear drop when i cant reach up to you to wipe that sorrow hurts
be gone sorrows
i dont know how to put this to you
but i started liking you
and knowing that maybe i wont be there to share my life with you hurts
that i kept this as a secret
it hurts, but i managed
you're my daily dosage of medicine
dear, i love you
sealed with a kiss,
edward

yatta! i ended the story. with th guy dying in the end. it wasnt my initial idea. i wanted them to be tgether. but i think, i forgot how the story goes initially. HAHA guess i AM stml-ish. =)

fister says:
you know some rooms have the cupboards with the water pipes? i slept in there for 20 mins. we had two fire drills today.
fizster says:
its actually quite comfortable in the rise cupboard.
momsy says:
eh how come you're in the rise cupboard?
fister says:
idk why i was in there. i was resting my soul and meditating i guess.
momsy says:
meditating in he cupboard?! you must be, erm *findingherightword*, retard enough to do that.
fizster says:
you'll know the great feeling when you try.

[OKAY. YOU MADE MY DAY LAR. who sleeps in the rise cupboard?! kesian betol sayang aku ni] gawd. I MISS YOU

i was watching goong on youtube. remembered how cute a couple shin and chaegyong made. ARGH! shin in this drama is every girls' dream eh? *swoons* i remembered the part he blindly said 'dont leave, dont leave me alone' to CG. and they hugged ad HE cried. ARGH! i want to see a guy put down his ego and cry lar. with all the pureness in it. cute kan? haha.

right now, i have a lot of dreams. and these dreams are the ones that made me want to get up from life and enjoy it. seize opportunities. take risks. loads of it. and then retire happily. i want to travel the earth. i want to take lots of pictos. i want to be free. all these want(s) are what drives me to become a good/better person. and i want to learnt to love. (mushy eh?)

from your eyes, i saw tears roll down and i realized that having a difficult life and cryng soetimes are not all unpleasant

wasalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuhu.

that's the spirit?!;NABILAHMOEN