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today's a tuesday. and like i told you before (i think), we should start the week with tuesdays. but then, we would have tuesday blues. (that doesnt sound nice! ahah) so, its okay to start the week with mondays. (im crapping dont mind me)

im hyper today. dont blame sugar rush. i fast. and didnt had any sahur. the feeling's like i was anticipating something to happen. like a something something. and man, was i right. something did happened. =) but you'll stay strong. kan? i'll pray for you. and everybody too. so the love will be shared. *winks*

lets see what did i do today and yesterday. harrumph: (=

since i didnt make the cut off point for quran during prelims, i had to tasmi' again. so what i did was to memekak ar. i read the quran out loud. ok, its just yassin. damn pathetic eh? a secondary four madrasah student doesnt know her yassin that well. (like wth?!) yassin is like everyday chant sey. i mean people should know. ok, nvm. im frustrated at myself. dont worry. and ghamidi's song is uber hard. i created my own song. and i hope i pass all the mad(s). and the gunnah(s). please oh allah. please let me pass my STE with a flying grade. (no, i didnt fail my prelims) and thank you lino and tawn. for tasmi'-ing me. and tawn for the ketuk2. hahaha!

then lino, tawn and i read the shine book to look at Allah's 99 names. haha. kesian jgk eh? no, we were just confirming. (SERIOUS!) and we laughed at how other people would read the names. like the huruf all different. and we tried to think of the meaning to the word. so, when we read we know and can appreciate it everyday. (it's Allah's names. you wouldnt want to just read them, right?) and we also sang tarhib. nice song lar! (sampai siap keluarkan lirik. sebab belom hafal sangat) i went around looking for ma'thurat but nobody has it with them. syikin asked why i would want a ma'thurat. nak bace lar sayang. abey ape kan? okay, i was THAT enthu. revised quran a lot of time takut hilang.

the whole class also read the qiraah given by ustaz idham and we went through FAL with ustazah rohana. im hoping to get himayah or maybe tanziimul auqat or maybe ta'lim lughah. but i dont want FAL and also tadkhum. i fially realised that reaing text can be quite hard. like when we dont know if its mudhaf ilaih or not and when its mudhaf ilaih nakirah. alaaaar. REVISE NAHU!! sheesh.

which lead us to te next subjet. did you know i failed my fiqh? told before eh? ok, nvm. im telling you again. i failed m fiqh. can anyone please help me? phmkan khudu' and hadhanah and ruj'ah and talaq. all tjose topics ar yang membingitkan. it feels like i wasnt there during lessons. eventough i was there. i dont understand a bit. so, HELP ME, please. HAHA! ok. and nahu's mark was dissapointng ternet ar. syakl!! grr. i have to go and read back lar. everything.

i am so pleased right now. because i am thinking positive. like, how i can do all this. oh Allah, please lend me your strength. oh Allah, plese lend US your strength. amin.

today's rehearsal was good i guess. considering that we actually got everything done. umarul didnt come today. lets all pray that he will come to school tomorrow or else we will have to replace him. shafakAllah, insyaAllah. oh nevermind. i panicked about the celbration. what with the class. the exco(s) thinggy. its damn corrupted lar. see, hafiz, not only mpac is corrupted. aha! (lets just keep it to ourselves) i am excited. and ihsan, BAWA KAIN BATIK! hehe. i love you guys.

yesterday, on the bus with filzah, we had a long talk. it was nice. considering that we have not talk that long since i dont even know when. =) and i was supried. cepat eh mase berlalu. haha. ahem.

and hamka! da lame tak jumpe. tetibe teringat die. meera talked about you in class. and jyeah. saw your picos. aceay. slimmed dwn! whats your secret? SHARE!! haha. i have to slim down toooo. (booo. screw babats) haha! and feroz too. i have not meet up with you. since a long time ago. tsk. haha.

the class was never full. why eh? i mean the number of absentees is always like that. if its not 4 or 5 its 7 or 8 or 9. i mean, what's there at home? I SLEEEP. okay, maybe its true that schoo is getting tiring becasue there's no lesson and t least at home, you dont have to wear jubah and rudung but then. its not fun not having a ful attendance. and i am seriously bugged. i think everyone's changing. i feel like im changig too. when do we have a mnajat of our wn? i love you babes. you usually will rock my day. sakinah, a public apology. i know you dont read blogs. but, IM SORRY I SHOUTED AT YOU JUST NOW. because seriously, i dont understand how you can act like that. with that heck-care attitude. i was seriously pissed. but im sorry now. i should not have shouted. i am really very sorry.

and dear, STAY STRONG. aku tu ar kau tak iron. tapi jangan bunuh diri! haha! love you. ribbit.. ribbit..

and i hope tommorrow's full rehearsal will go through smoothly. lets hope it doesnt rain tomorrow. and also on friday. OH MR SUN, SUN, MR OLDEN SUN, PLEASE SHINE DOWN ON ME. even though hujan itu rahmat. *winks*

assalamualaikum wr.wr.

ilovemonday!;NABILAHMOEN