1:04 AM

its empty.
its empty

dont mind me.

i was lying down on my bed. thinking. thinking hard.
when i realized tears rolling down my cheeks.
its not your fault. really. shh dont cry
the inner voice told me.
but the tears wont stop.
my heart felt empty.
the thumping of the heart against my ribs stopped.
i cant do this anymore.
i cant.
now, the gentle tears rolling down my cheeks turned to sobs.
i tried thinking of happy thoughts.
i tried thinking of you.
but thinking about you made me cried harder.
i think im not doing enough.
i know im not doing enough.
that has been my daily chant.
but im clueless.
i dont know how to react.
please tell me.
WHAT CAN I DO TO HELP?!
the thoughts inside my head are haunting me.
begging freedom.
you may say that my being there is already enough.
but its not.
there's stil something missing.
but what?!
as i lay on my bed thinking crazy thougts.
i remembered the time when we were being crazy.
acting as if the world was ours.
making the world our playground.
we played till the clock striked past midnight.
we shared secrets and played truth or truth to kill boredom.
we were randoming. retarding.
and i love you.

i still love you, dont worry.

now i know why im crying.
i love you so much.
and when you're hurt, i can feel it too.
and it hurt damn bad.
please baby dear, dont cry.
because the world is too merry for you to be down.
lets own the world once again.
just me and you and no one else.
we dont need anyone else.
lets make the world our playground again.
play hide and seek (no, i wont let you out of my sight)
lets just play tag.
you'll be the victim, im the thief.
i stole your heart remember.
no, im not planning to return it back.
i'll count to ten.
get ready to run. and laugh your heart out.
get ready to be caught.
im so not gonna let you run away.
never will. never will
when the ful moon's up.
i'll be begging you.
to come near me.
hold my hand.
let me kiss that soft lips of yours.
let me hug you tight.
let me put that sorrows away.
please dear, just close your eyes and let me do everything
just let me do everything.

im still clueless.
OH WHAT SHOULD I DO?
but nevermind.
as long as we have each other by our side.
to hold on to.
to hold up our own little secret world.
to smile for each other when we cant.
at least we'll have each other.
anything other than that,
we'll figure it out, soon.
you are still learning
my heart whispers.
i swept away the tears.
managed a smile.
because the last thing on my mind was you.

just another fiction.

ZOMBIEFIZZ WAS BORN.
you carry too much on your shoulders.
i cant wait till you let it down.
the only thing we're getting is older,
this time never comes back around.
it only hurts to see you cry.
im only sad when ther's tears in your eyes.
i cant lie and say im fine.
because it only hurt to see you cry..

STE IS LIKE IN 6 DAYS MORE.
tuesday-wednesday-thursday-friday-saturday-sunday.
no, im not panick-ing that much. too tired to even try to panic.

assalamualaikum.

facade;NABILAMOEN