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angels and airwaves are loved! hahaha. not a hardcore fan, was just a passig through remark!

the days passed had been hectic. i ask Allah for strength. i ask Him for guidance. amiin.
crying has been real easy for me these days. (wait a minute. it has always been easier! heck!!) i love you. really. i love everyone of you. and if im going one day, please just let me. i guess thats the best plan.

im really tired of thinking whats ere for me. he best options. and im scared. i was never good in choosing. everything is an impulse for me. hurrhurr.
And I don't know
(i really dont!)
And I can't guess
(its hard to)
If it's gonna be OK
(i hope it wil. i hope i will)
But now my last wish
Is that you do this with me
(please, dear, please)
Kiss me here and hold my hand
(hold it tight. dont let go)
Let me feel like I'm the only one
(am i the only one?)
I know you can
(i KNOW you can)
Won't you do it for me now?
(please..)

im scared. shitless. im scared shitless. no, dont go and tell me 'i told you so' because its not helping. its so not helping. no, dont go around telling lies because it hurts. it hurts damn bad. im crapping. im hurt okay? try me telling you all kind of stuff that half of it is sujected to be debate. try me shooting my mouth off and you dont have a chnace to redeem yourself back. i think you're cruel. because the things you said are just not fair. YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING!! stop comparing me to the rest of the world. STOP IT. STOP IT. STOPI IT. i cant see why you should ayway. (freak off) i hate myself. for thinking this. for doing this. for behaving like this. FOR EVERYTHING. im sorry i wasnt what i should be.

everything i said
wasnt what i meant
i hope you can forget
please forgive me.
please do.
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exams are nextweek. hurrhurr. but i didnt feel like exams week. hmm? i dont know what to write anymore. bye readers. hope i feel much better. and i hope you do too. love you loads. SALAM!

can this end?;NABILAHMOEN