1:59 PM

thats it. im fed up already. i miss my friends oh so much. thanks to my selfsih self, my phone got taken away and i am having difficulties contacting my friends. heck, i am remorseful already and tried all my fucking luck and might to get back my phone. im just unlucky. gaaaaahs!

im currently emotionally unstable. ): im worrying about a lot of unnecessary things. whoah. im realy stupid sometimes.

nevermind that, i think mama is having abother PMS-ish go at me for no reason. this happens quite frequently and everytime this happens, i'll pack my bag and is ready to go. just that guilty conscience is keeping me home. she is, afterall my mom. and i dont want her to worry so much. yes mama, i love you so much. just sometimes you dont see it and im hurt.

i think holding back and trying not to cry is hurting yourself, yeah? i thought so too. i think im getting stronger emotionally. though, i still suck at saying goodbyes. yep! its very very very hard. but im tryong very hard not to cry because im strong. thats being plain stupid rigth? i guessed so too. im confused and is complicated.

i heard that STE's result will be released on the 28th. harrumph. i dont epect to score nor do i expect to fail. i expect to do good. i hafaled like mad. i hope i pass everything. esp fiqh. i failed during prelims. (gaaaahs!) but im hoping reaaaaaallly hard that im doing good in every subject. i did everything i could. insyaAllah, everything will be okay. amiin.

netbolaers, im sorry. ive not been going down for trainings and i feel like ive let you down. i miss you guys. but ive not been myself lately. and its so hard to contact me, eh? its also veryrd to contact yu guys. telling you i cant come down for trainings and such. i am so sorry for letting you guys down. you know, i love you. (:

im done here. i just like to say i love everybody. yesyes. i do very much. (:

salam!