9:58 PM

i was feeling super naughty

salam 'alaikum.

i got a few things to clear out. before this head of mine goes, POOOOOOOOP like the weasel. (eh, actually like that nursery rhyme eh. could play it on the piano (last time) okay) (that is random) but yeah, i have got issues and i want the whole wworld to know. (yes, issues. i dont do subscriptions)

okay, i want you to get this thing first. whoever reads this, shall keep this to himself or herself. becasue i dont think that this will afect you guys. especially not my family members, bukhara ladies, hafiz and fellow close friends. thank you. (this sounds like something you would see before a story starts)
(and i shall stop all this bracketing(s) hah!)

aanyway, it has come to my knowledge that my schoolmates' blogs are being patronized by the school. and i would personally tell that person [caps]not[/caps] to fuss over it. because seriously, i think that it is not only your blog that is being watched. i have a feeling that its every single irsyadian's blog. and you might think it is wrong (to watch people's blog) but dear, it is certainly, obviously, not wrong at all. and if you dont want them to continue watching your blog, i suggest you private your blog. its easy. go to the settings of your blog, then permission and lastly, click 'only people i choose' (to read the blog). there you go! blog privated. the liberty to write and post everything. i can go on and on about this (seeing how talkative i can go) but im not goig to do it. you dont private, you dont fuss. you dont want them to read, you private. it makes yourlife easy and trust me, it makes the lives of the people watching you easy too. trust me.

that settled, i would love to tell a someone to stop being a hypocrite. it hurts sometimes. you tell others that you hate hyprocrites but dear darling, you are one too, i'm afraid. stop trying to tell people this and that. (whatever this and that might be) and seriously, consider telling yourself things first before trying to say it to others. (heck, i might be a hypocrite too, and i dont even know about it (or maybe i do but im just in denial)) so, i dwont tell you what to do or ask you to do stuffs. but please, reflect on what you've said to some other people. thats why people should think before they talk. it doesnt give you the liberty to judge a person when he or she doesnt do what you always does. and its not fair to him or her to accept wht you said but you can never accept what he or she might say. that is being unfair (and its obvoious). and when you say something, try and apply it in your life. there will be a point when the person you 'advise' will 'advise' you back. or he or she will start comparing you and themself. and it will really be shameful if their last sentence is 'well, he/she tld me to do this but he/she is doing the opposite'. it will be damn sad.

i would also like to congratulate some of my friends for their hardworking(ness) (I DONT EVEN NOW iF THERE IS SUCH A WORD) that was potrayed close to three months. that just shows how mature you are and how you have finaly realised how important this year is to you. i will gladly like to follow this commendable example. i hope you would give me more pointers. to you uys, KEEP ON WORKING HARD(er) and those who are still sleeping, [caps]WAKE UP![/caps] please? i love you. i dont want you to ruin your lives and regretting this.

i have found another reason why i should keep updating (even if its once a week). to improve my writing. does it help, you ask? well, it should help. (you have to write using correct english and all, though. it will work only that way) and of course, the niat. to improve and not to show off. oh, who shows off these days. you'll scoffed. well, lets see. some few other people, of course? jyeah. some few other people.

ive told myself to really find what i would want to do in my entire life (okay. most of my life, anyway). and i found the answer already. actually, i found it a long time ago. and to achieve this, i shall not change my mind. (yet again) sticking to one is hard (for me) but insyaAllah, i'm going to do it. i do have friends to help me, right? (no, dont lose faith in me yet. i'll try my utmost best in doing this. i'll dedicate my entire 6 months in trying to not lose focus. for what i want to do needs a lot of patience (which i think i lack of) and perseverence (whick i lack of too) hmm.. oh, please dont lose aith in me. dont forget me in your prayers. insyaAllah i wont forget you in mine. oh Allah. please help this servant of yours. amin) (p.s its ACJC (and plese dont give me that look. im tired of it. seriously. ACJC AND ACS(I) arent the same. totally not. and im not going to enter this jc (of my choice) because of him. okay?) and sajc (or any other jc(s) i think its worth the place) and mass comm (and not any other subject. for the love of writing.) and syria. im going to teach a language. syria is the next best options. (initially, i wanted jordon. aiyah. should have check on the net more)) but you know what? for now, i'll just do my best lilahita'ala and lets see where [caps]he[/caps] wants me to be.

i was at pagoda street this afternoon. i was at orhcard this evening. i bought the necklaces already. tawn, will saturday be okay for slice? lino, you want to come? lyna, dont worry. i'll follow you shopping! but lets have slice first. selasih, follow okay? maiss, want to join? mahmudaaaaah, you too. jemma and tayn, following? mary, tapha, jo, hanneh, want to come along? syerry and nad? okay, i might as well ask the whole class. lets have a slice outing! and hafiz, we can surely meet afterwards *winks*. when im going shopping with lyna. righ now, i need my girlfrieds fix. who's joining? raise up your hand. (or just holler at my taggy) weeeee.

today was fruitful. and race to the witch mountian's lead teenage actor is cute and handsome. AHAHAH! ahem. well, today was also a rollercoaster ride. (why the hell woud you think that im joking around? if i say its you, trust me, its you) and i saw khidir (bukan abang tayn) what was his dad's name? alaaah, that khidir lah. and he was dressing like a business man. is he doing business somewhere? aaaanyway, he shocked me. haha.

[edit] p.s: converse with my jubah is really comfie. and its a fashion understatement. its cool lah. HAHA! [/edit]

i am craving for hokey-pokey. and my hands are ithcy to try and sew or put together
or make something. weeheehee. im out of here. SALAM!

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