10:37 PM

innallaha ma'assabirin.

peace to all brothers and sisters.

this is alrady 1st week of term 2. and the second time im posting things. wow. scool project lah! GRRAWR. malay project. but it is fun. yep, it is!

any things happened these few days too. some things are just unvoidable, i guess. im just hoping that things are going to say as it is now. i am happy with my life. be it academically or not. (though i am a bit slow in the academic part but i is trying out new ways, maan) hafiz is okay. schoolwork is fine. social network isnt fne, yet. homeworks are usually done on time. am engaged with my works. had not been sleeping in class. hamdan lillah. syukran laka ya rabbul alamin!

i have one problem though. my videomaker wont work. URGH! now i have to err, borrow mr izzad his lappy (if that is even possible) to do this thang. aiyah. butbut, when you want to do something, hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu alih, kan? we already video-ed it, we should just do it properly then! jiayou team! HAHA.

i hope i dont turn like you. this is from me heart.

i figure that this year is ververy frenzied. i swear that if i have to go through a single thing just one more, i am going to want to die faster. because i think im just hurting everybody. and you know what? NO, I DONT NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. BECAUSE I AM NOT IMPORTANT ANYMORE. YES, JUST GO AWAY AND I'LL MAKE MYSELF USEFUL FOR MYSELF.

especially to dearest mama and papa, i am sorry for being rude and whathaveyous. i think im geting sick of being the one to be blamed. i know that out of everyone, im the most pampered. and im still complaining. i know im an ungrateful child. but after whatever happened, i am just sorry that im not sharing. its too late, okay? i just cannot talk to you. its just awkward. really, its just not like always anymore. you missed that step already. and too bad, there is no turning of time. i am just keeping mum. oh, i'll cry, i will not want to talk to you, i'll shut myself in my bedroom all the time, its just a phase. im just passing teenage life, i'll get through it. honestly, i dont know how but im going to do it. and dont accuse me of having friends to talk to. THEY DO NOT UNERSTAND AND I DO NOT SHARE WITH THEM. stop assuming. stop saying these things. me, nurnabilah, is really am very tired. i am going to serahkan myself to Allah. my fate is in his hands anyway. of course i'll make plenty of prayers and i'll put in effort but really, i'll justleave my fate to the almighty. condemn me, attack me, do whatever you want. even bring me to the counsellor, i wont open up, okay? yes, i am not that nabilah anymore. just remember that i love you guys. i just miss you, especially mama. im sorry.

that being said, i guess now, the whole world knows my situation. how stupid and just bloody passive i am. yes, i am stupid and pasive. i admit. im the most stupidest of the bunch. i have enough of your taunting. now go to the next blog and enjoy life. im shutting down this site for the good of myself. if not, im revealing other stupid things. thank you for commenting about my stupid remarks.

wassalam.