11:13 PM

i am going away..

salam brothers and sisters.

well, like i told you, relite camp is on (though the reluctancy. i pray that everything is going to be well) and my weekends are going to be taken away from me. yes, i know we can not go (coz aparently, A LOT of my fellow peers arent going) but i feel guilty lah. kesian tengok _______.

i just have to say this okay?

ONE: I DONT THINK '.' SHOULD GO AND DO THAT. I AM FREAKING MAD AT '.' I WANT TO FREAKING KNOW WHO SHE IS!! I AM REALLY VERY DISSAPOINTED. NAK SANGAT CAKAP TENTANG ISLAM TAPI AWAK TAHU TAK YANG CARA AWAK NI SALAH? MEMANG HADIS ADA MENGATAKAN KALAU KITA ADA KUASA, KITA TEGUR DENGAN 'TANGAN'. KALAU TIADA KUASA, AWAK TEGUR DENGAN NASIHAT DAN KALAU YANG INI JUGA TIDAK DAPAT DIBUAT, DOAKAN DIA SUPAYA DIA AKAN BERUBAH (WALAUPUN ITU SELEMAH-LEMAH IMAN). BUKAN KITA PERGI KE BLOGNYA DAN MENGKRITIK DIA SEPERTI ITU. i cant believe it. fuhh. (EXHAAAAAAALE) well, if you're really that well-versed, maybe you can go preach somewhere else. i am not trying to side seha or anything neither am i trying to come to seha's aid. but, wei! you are not seeing the point. its a good thing that you want to advice her and remind her of things, so you tag but remember lah. its to advice and not critic. think about it okay? and islam tu indah. when you tag things like that, there are other people who is also reading her blog. trust me, you dont want to set a wrong impression on them. (first impressions do suck but you have to deal with the fact that its darn important) remember that, okay dear sister?

TWO: well, this is, i dont understand. 'sorry', you wanted to ask for forgiveness from seha and urged her not to bother with what the others are saying. you asked her not to take things so seriously and bring the matters to her heart. but after meera taged at seha's blog, you seemed to 'comdemn' meera at SEHA'S blog. it would be none of my business but, seriously dude, whats the problem?! if you're unappy with meera, go and talk to her privately or have wars with her at HER blog. NOT DO IT THROUGH A FRIEND's (from back then) BLOG!! woah. i am amaaaaaaazed. at what you did. sorry, dear. but truly, it was a shocking (quite) contrasting behaviour on your account. UNLESS! THE SECOND 'SORRY' ISNT THE FIRST 'SORRY'. and if that is the case, the second 'sorry' is an asssssss. (sorry for the language. i am damn freaking mad and dissapointed. thats all)

THREE: why the hell, in the first place, did you tag?! (at first. or to the one who started it) its stuhpeed, okay?

i dont know. relite camp is tomorrow and i havent pack up yet. borrowed hafiz's bag. weee! converse nyonya? slippers? crocs? AAAAGH! (i still cannot believe it that mary's going. i shall bully her) and PEOPLE!!! WE, MADRASAH STUDENTS, KNOW HOW TO CONVERSE IN ENGLISH, OKAY? pffft. really insulted.

happy birthday nazirul, kapilan and jepp. (:

i should go sleep. tomorrow must get up early to go to the camp! nyehehe.

lots of love,
nabilamoen.

(oh!! dont forget to miss me....)

wait. wait. i have to write this down.
sometimes, when you want to change (and is changing) people would question about the way you act and all. they wil doubt you. they'll become suspicious of you. but please, just be brave and do it again. you fell once (maybe twice and more) before, what about falling with pride and grace this time round? people might mock you. say things about you, but seriously, tell me, what do they know? what do they really know? so, trust your judgements. have trust in what you're doing. dont give up. say tat iek a prayer. let it be your mantra for the year. practise! practise! i love you, person. just be strong. (oh, and how i jolly well know all about this? i went through the same thing. only the concentration of people is differet. the setting and all).
argh! i cant get off the comp. too tempting to talk alot. and critic and 'condemn' and 'mock' and all. gaaaaaah!

SALAM!