8:29 PM

your happiness is essential to mine

i am still far near perfection. give me a chance to prove myself, please? because i need the strength and i need the faith. anyway, thank you for my days spent (without school). you have been supportive in every way and i am thankful for a person like you. thank you also for the time well spent. im trying very hard to control the emotions that keep coming and going away. insyaAllah, i might be able to do it. please have faith. sometimes, when you're at a crossroad, you have to turn left and right to make a somewhat 'correct' judgement. it may not be perfect and may have bumps, crooked lines and big boulders but if its fruitful in the end, its always worth it. bersih tak semestinya suci. i think i should do what my heart says. soething i believe in. STRONGLY. aanyway, azwan is not araid of me now. gatal. his growing bigger and cheekier. just like the other cousins. im currently madly ternet about mr strong. idk why. (: i am going to buy flowers. for special people that i need to thank. I NEED. it wasa nice chat yesterday though i slept. i cant take it. it was aferall a damn long time since the last time we did that. conferencing. thanks for listening and agreeing and backing me up. thank you very much!! i had this conversation with arif (whom i have not been talking for a long time too) about blogging. on how some people can delete and redo what they write in a nicer form and i was against him at that time. debating on the phone with two dont want to lose chinese is a scary sight. haha! D: but right now, i have to eat my words. im thankful for the 'delete' button. i need to ask you people. what am i good at? because i realy need that boost of self-esteem. i think ive changed tremendously. i need to face that. if we keep telling ourselves that people have changed, when are we actually going to ste forward and do something. i want to change back. the first step is to realise the cause. and kill it. dearest, thank you for listening and giving chances and having lots and lots of patience with this fickle-minded, stubborn little kid. i dont know how to thank you this much. today and yesterday was awesome. i hope everyday will be like this. i am free to voice myself out. insyaAllah it will be like this. Allah tu maha adil kan? (: 450D, 450D. WHEN ARE WE GOING TO GET MARRIED?! urgh. dude, dah penat? k ar. takya buat ape-ape lagi, okay? takya nk cube pon. ingat aku cakap aku taknak jumpe kau lagi, maybe betol aku taknak jumpe kau lagi. dah ar. thanks for ruining today. im just a step too late.

you were romeo, you were throwing pebbles.

till later, insyaAllah.
salam.